lamentations

i have been on this project for the whole of may stay here in singapore and as the months pass by i saw myself getting beat up and the sad thing about this is that even my peers have noticed how i have become moody and serious as of late.

honestly i do not know what to make of it. yes, i think i'm still in a rut that i cannot get out of. how i wish that everything would be signed off and that would be the time to decide whether to move on or wallow even more. i guess the former would be a better option.